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Hey, it's me again, I want to share one of my personal blog with you... Hope you'll like this...

 

The evening of january

Evenings of january... shadows lengthen and cool breeze returns, sky looks drowsy with the flickering flame of the setting sun.. 

I was walking on my tired legs thinking of going home after all day outing with my cousin.

 

My phone beeped with a short text, "I've arrived just now, where are you? when will you come?"

This brought me a broad smile on my face. In a moment I forgot my tiredness. I asked my cousin to come with me to meet the person. she agreed. we immediately booked a cab and set off to go there.

I was exhilarated.. excited but nervous. Finally , We reached to the place. There was He, standing on a corner of the entrance door of a cafe waiting for us. 

He: "Hey.. you took so long.. where have you been? lets go inside. I'm hungry.."

I couldn't say any word except giving a smile.

My heart was beating so fast I couldn't imagine. And why this will not happen..! 

Afterall, He was the love of my life. I was totally infatuated with him. I had a feeling of deep affection for him.

After being separated this was our first meet. We directly went to the cafe counter as we all were famished and ordered burger for all of us. The fun fact was I had to paid the bill. ugh...! 

we talked hours and hours sitting there. Though my cousin didn't like him for the way he talks. Its like he is full of self-worth and always shows he is superior over others. In real, he is actually like this. He is not really trust worthy. This is a one of a big reason of our break up. Our relation was full of Lies he made. And I blindly believed that. Even the break up.. He made unforgivable lies to end it. 

But somehow, after a long time, we started to talk again.. and this time.. he said He fall for me. Now he truly feel for me. This makes me to feel really happy... whenever he says it. Some part of me wanted to give a chance again..  

But...

Yeah.. there's always a but... 

But..At the end he always made things worse for me. Always he did it trying to prove he was the only right person. In a word, he was totally an 'immature' person for me. Eventually I felt , I can't spend my whole life with him. He is not the one.

But its not like I had only bad times with him.

Those days were very perfect for me when I was in it. We used to spend time together by roaming here and there. I used to sit back of his cycle. Caring. Laughing. waiting for each other on bus stand. Spending time on the river side... These memories still make me stop and smile. I feel happy whenever I think of these.

Time to return. No.. not in that relation which makes me feel less.. It's time to go back to home. We bid goodbye to each other. He told me that day also to ping him after reaching home. We spent a good time all together that day. It brought me a lot of memories.

But I am happy, I made a better decision for me. And I do not feel sad for loving him. My feeling was true. Love is not always staying together. I am proud of me for choosing myself over the relationship. Yes, I loved him. And I do not regret this. I have learned that life is not really easy. you have to make it easy. 

I was overwhelmed with  my emotions that evening. 

And here.. life goes on....

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